Career

I’m in a position to be anything I want. I have the support to pick a career and pursue it. Yet I can’t. Not that I can’t think of several careers I would like to try, it’s that I can’t, with good conscious, enter a field at such a late stage in my life. I’m too old to start a career. I’m too old for the normal landmarks of careers: internships, first days, kill-a-prostitute initiations.

No matter how fast I progress I’ll always be 10 to 15 years behind people my own age. Starting careers is the strict dominion of young people. I must resign myself to that fact and must realize I have squandered my life away. I have not only failed to find a career, I have failed to even fail in a career.